After yesterday’s disappointing debacle of overeating, procrastinating at work and hiding from the world all evening with Netflix and a few glasses of wine, Jenny woke up feeling less than well-rested but determined to make changes TODAY.
“OK I hit snooze a few times more than I wanted but had a green juice, got to work on time and signed up for my favorite spin class.”
“I’m even going to cancel my plans for tonight so I won’t be tempted!”
Now it’s 3pm:
“Ugh – I feel like crap. I’m hungry and bored. Why do I feel even worse today than I did yesterday? Why is this so hard? Maybe I don’t really care so much and it doesn’t even matter. Nothing is going to change anyway.”
Jenny was reminded about the after work drinks – a farewell send off to that guy in the art department she barely knows.
“I don’t want to go, everyone will be eating and drinking crappy bar food. But I have to go or it will look bad. I’ll just have some sparkling water, stay for an hour and go home.”
Several hours and 2 glasses of wine later…..
“I’m so hungry, I’ll just have a few fries. OMG, I just ate that entire bowl of nuts. Oh screw it. I don’t care. I deserve to enjoy myself.”
The next morning, standing in front of her closet trying to find something to wear AGAIN, Jenny just wanted to go back to bed.
She thought about starting over again today but, honestly, knows herself too well.
Jenny is disappointed, discouraged and totally unmotivated.
The workday ahead feels unmanageable, she’s definitely not going to call that client today, workout or respond to the friend who wants to get together.
Jenny makes promises to herself and rarely keeps them.
She promises to look for a new job but doesn’t update her resume, she vows to go to bed early yet watches TV until 1am, she commits to a budget and goes overboard online shopping.
AGAIN and AGAIN and AGAIN.
Sure, not one of those is a life changing, deal breaker decision but they pile up day after day until Jenny has stack of broken promises to herself that’s so high she can’t even trust herself to skip the cocktails one night, let alone have that great life she really wants.
The good news is Jenny has a choice.
We all have a choice – every day.
But nothing is going to change if you keep thinking and doing things the same way day after day.
I’ll leave you with that thought!